| So, for one, its the new year, but more importantly, I leave for tour
in almost exactly 24 hours and I'm currently having some minor issues
with breathing correctly. This seems to happen before every tour and
I'd call it a mix of nerousness and excitement, but either way, here's
what I'm thinking:
What's weird about this tour is that it's literally years in the
making. Cj and I used to talk about this back in highschool. Senior
year was supposed to end with The Premier/Nexus tour and now, look, two
years later, here it fucking is. Its almost like we've earned it. Like,
we put in all of the bullshit and the hard tours and now we get to go
do what we wanted to from the begining. The weirdest part of it is that
Mexico isn't coming. Yea, I know, stab wounds; he hates us; whatever.
The bottom line is, when we thought about this tour, he was a part of
it, so despite the fact that he hasn't spoken a word to me in over a
year, it's strange that we're leaving tomorrow and he is not.
The other weird thing about this tour is that we are leaving knowing
full well that the odds are decent that we'll break down somewhere and
I honestly just don't give a shit. Anne has been talking about it for
awhile now. She said she needs to get out of this town and so do I.
Well, so do we. See, we go to community college and stay here in
Lansdale to be able to be in these bands, but the same scenery and same
people and the same drama is enough to drive someone, well, insane.
This is our chance to get away for awhile. It may not be a semester at
school, but its something and I'll risk whatever needs to be risked for
this.
Here's one; everytimes I leave for tour, Michelle is mad at me or I'm
mad at her. Its like, we can't have a civil dis-union. None of these
fights would happen if I didn't care about her and I'm sure she'll
realize that this is all stupid soon enough, but I don't like going off
for two weeks when I could potentially (its a small chance, but a
chance) not even make it back when she is mad at me. I had a weird
dream last night that we were like 25 and getting married but she
changed her mind at the alter and then wouldn't apologize because it
was 'my fault for asking her in the first place.' It seemed very
fitting.
Lastly, Keevil leaves for Iraq tomorrow. Yea, everyone's saying be safe
to Premier and Nexus, but we're going to places like KY. Keevil is
going to a fucking WAR. I wish him the best of luck. I am not a praying
man, but I'll pray for this. I recall Jeremy saying (this was like a
year ago at least), "It something happens to Keevil, I'll drive a nuke
over there in the trunk of my fucking Nisson." So, Iraq insurgents,
watch who the fuck you shoot because a bunch of suburban kids with bad
attitudes and baseball bats have Keevil's back.
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| Today, tomorrow, and I'm gone.
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| I would like to fight the following people, wether it be gauntlet style
or all at once. Either way, I would lose, but I would like to fight
them anyway:
-The Nightmare Scenario
-The makers of the Ford 1980 Superwagon
-Fate
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